The Current Book I Find Difficult To Read.

 Ok I didn't think Fargo was their best flick. Too close to home perhaps. Or maybe I just need a cigarette because I'm bored. I had the intentions of writing a screenplay. Do I really need to if I have never done so before? I prefer books of poetry, nonfiction, and fiction anyway to reading the 3 or 4 screenplays I've trudged through. It's the formatting I don't enjoy. Maybe it's a form of poetry that doesn't resonate with me on the page and I prefer the completed movie. Maybe feature films are something I prefer to shoot as a documentary style more so than hearing and herding actresses and actors and the cartoon characters (CGI) I would need to complete a massive project. Where to start? The movie theater or a TV or a Video or Vimeo (which has cool stuff but is difficult to access). Am I done with moving pictures. No. It's impossible especially if you grew up watching them.

I just had a mean thought and I apologize. To you.

Back to your regular program. I'm sitting next to a stack of books. On the bottom is a book of Egyptian poetry. Mine are in the middle. And the Coen bros book is on top. I will read a book today. It's this one. I may need to make a pot of coffee to get back in the mood to reading. I should just watch Raising Arizona or O Brother Where Art Thou. But old man winter knows the bare tree branches better than I do. Does it ever snow in Egypt? Does the Sun still shine on the pyramids. Of course I assume it does from this side of the world but honestly I don't know the weather report. A movie would be the quickest way to find out. Books sometimes take a loooooooong time to circulate. A film can take thousands of years to produce because you need a good story for people to maintain interest. Something that stands the test of time. Did I lose her today? I lose her everyday. Classic and nerve wracking. Will she be my Valentine? No. Do I want her to be. Yes. Or vice versa. We are dancing too far apart or too close for comfort. Is anyone watching? Someone is always watching. Some want us to succeed and some want to see us in the garden. Or in a movie. Where will it end? A memory.

How many times have I been in love. With myself once, with everyone else it's impossible to calculate but with the one I've found it's eternal. It's her or variations of her. I think too often. But not today. Today I'm on an arctic expedition. And I don't know where to go with her because there are so many possibilities. A restaurant is an obvious choice and the smart choice. But who will watch us and do I even care if I'm thinking about her. A myth and a reality clashing. Where does she want to go? The arctic? Frankenstein? Probably not. Ok sorry to the most beautiful person in my life. I'm just out here having a cigarette and you aren't. You are already gone and so am I. Will you wait. Obviously not for very long. Because I'm out here having a cigarette and you probably think I'm?

Smoking. I should get her opinion on gum.